why i want spn to go home instead of going big.
I said stuff like this:
I want an SPN sendoff that goes smaller.
Dean's always (or whatever that means in 13+ years of canon) said he is going to, will, wants to, die bloody; Sam said in 13 x 20 that they'd die together, should it come to that. Blaze of glory, maybe. (And here, outside, in meta-land, J2 have said some similar things). But are those the only options? A happy, heavenly barista/barkeep AU would fit them even less than the long drop off a cosmic cliff. But what Winchesterland would? What would (maybe?) full-circle them to the shadows of a dorm room, a trunk, their close breath and their young grief and their driving off into the dark with smoke in their shirts and so many years of work to do?
So did I get what I said I wanted (which actually was not all that clear)? I was mostly not surprised; 15 x20 pulled on the narrative threads I expected (hard) and it was not all of it well-executed (there is plenty to say in a critical vein but I'm not going to say it). But I was totally unprepared for the emotional sequelae, which I am struggling to characterize beyond the obvious, original injury (which: Winchesters might have something to say about that, about wounds that repeat or transfer brother-to-brother or never close at all, physical body or cosmic). I know we're living in a collective elegy with no freedom or peace promised, but that's not all of it. And I didn't think I wanted an ending that kind of dictated its own response and then some, but--
did you get what you wanted? did Sam and Dean?